The entire Brown family has had an incredibly difficult year. In March, they lost

Garrison Brown to suicide. The aftermath hasn’t been easy, especially for his mother

and siblings. Maddie Brown Brush is Garrison’s full sister and took his loss especially

hard. Online, Maddie is generally pretty open with followers. This week marked a difficult milestone for the family, prompting the TLC star to share her feelings. See what she had to say about pain and loss. Maddie Brown Brush Reflects On Six Months Without Garrison This week marks the six-month anniversary of Garrison Brown’s tragic death. His mother Janelle shared her grief on social media. Now, Maddie Brown Brush is opening up about her own experience. “Six months. It’s been six months since this beautiful soul left us, and not a day goes by that I don’t think about him. In some ways, it feels like he crosses my mind even more now, which might be a sad truth for many who’ve lost someone in this way,” Maddie began her tearjerking Instagram post.

She attached photos of Garrison playing with her children and went on to discuss how deeply people all over the world are impacted by a loved one ending their own life. Sadly enough, she also adds that her entire family was blindsided by Garrison’s death. “My brother, Garrison, had his struggles, but this was not something any of us saw any signs for. We were truly blindsided,” Maddie continued. “ We talked regularly, and my mom’s kids have always been close-knit, even as life changed around us. Garrison was sarcastic and witty, and in moments of seriousness, he seemed almost uncomfortable with it—like it was hard for him to be vulnerable.” “I miss him dearly, and the truth is, I don’t know how to talk about this. His death took us all by surprise. It leaves me wondering—if we talked about mental health more openly, could something have changed? I’ll never know for sure.

But what I do know is that the hurt doesn’t go away. It just transfers. And sometimes, it feels amplified. For anyone who’s been touched by this kind of loss, my heart is with you. You’re not alone in the pain, and it’s okay not to have all the answers,” Maddie concluded her post. Instagram Users React To The Heartbreaking Post In the comments, Maddie Brown’s Instagram followers offered their condolences and support. Her brother Paedon wrote, “Oh I was not ready for this post!😢💙💙” Other Instagram users added: “You have a gift Maddie. Your ability to transfer from your beautiful heart the profoundness of sudden loss into words is so special! Your words help those of us who have experienced sudden loss to articulate and process our deepest feelings and emotions.”

“My heart breaks for you. My daughter attempted suicide two weeks ago and had been on a ventilator since. Having had a brother who also committed suicide, this is certainly hard. Thinking of you always ❤️” “Sending you and your family so much love today and every day. It’s an impossible thing to maneuver, but you’re doing it.” Tune into the Season 19 premiere at 10 PM Eastern time on Sunday, September 15.